Month: Dec 2018

She dances in colours that don’t exist
And celestial lights shine behind her eyes
Her shadow washes the wave of a wish
With the gentle parting of her lips
Breathing out a suggestion between her sighs

Butterflies beat a fluttering taboo
And moths draw dreams of light in the sand
I secretly worship her every move
With all five senses waiting in cue
A prophet promoted with a jewelled hand

She is my light in shining amour
Guiding me back to my grandeur
I love myself, I love my life
Which is why someday she’ll be my wife

We’re two stars shining brightly
In orbit and dancing lightly
Together in infinite expansion
Two suns colliding, can you imagine?

These colours she moves in are connections
Rooted in reality, a grounded completion
United to the moment, she beckons
Curling her finger, she welcomes
I’ve reached a deeper understand and appreciation

I found a deep configuration
Of self hate and constipation
A reflection of all my choices
To be someone who is voiceless.

I’ve always wanted to be accepted
Loved for who I am and not rejected
But as a child I was ridiculed
For being myself, I was soundly schooled.

I remember the trauma
The confusion, the drama
To mumma I would plead:
Who am I if I am not me?

I don’t want to be this person
If being truly him is seriously hurtin’
My voice is too loud
My chest is too proud
I’m such a silly idiot
So I make myself small
So you can pity it.

Oh, and such satisfaction did I draw
Your sympathy is what I wanted more
And finally I was liked for this creation
A mask of need and desperation.

I would be intelligent
And oh, so elegant
Pleasant to be around
An accomodating clown.

Good morning, I am Mr Nice Guy
You’re right, I’m wrong cause I’m a little shy
I can be your puppet
Whatever you need, I’ll suffer it
I only ask one thing in return
Just confirm and compliment
This discontent and toxic dissident.

I don’t write this to indulge
But if I don’t say something I will bulge
I seek to heal that which I’ve chosen
A game of mirrors and petty emotion.

I feel the power of who I truly am
Knocking on the door, waiting to be let in
But I’m finding it hard to let go
Of this layer of protection that is hollow.

I’ve rejected myself so many times
And now that I’m healing I’m feeling it rise
But I’ve connected to something glorious
Which whispers that I’ll be victorious

Because on a deeper level
My hurts are not me in truth
On a deeper level
The love that I am can not be refused
On a deeper level
I choose to live who I truly am:
Love and only love
A power of infinite value
The only question is can you?

Where did my love go?
It’s not in this box of incense
or in the fire that lights the candle.
I can’t find it in the textures of a page
Nor will I see it staring back at me
Through a sage.

I find myself given up
Watching TV till my eyes pop
Injecting not-me
Speed direct into my blood
Liquid lead now lagging in my veins
Not-love now spreading like a flood.

Yes, my love is there
I know, it’s not something to be found
Allow, feeling the despair
And connect, you’re so profound.

But answer me this
For I have a question.
Why bother feeling this depression
When I can eat chips
And only deal with a compression?

I’m not looking for ageless wisdom
Nor do I not seek to feel better
I honestly just want to connect to a vision
A purpose to focus on
A purpose that holds me greater.

I find that I can not fully live my truth
Without being connected to something grander
But I can only wait patiently, like a sleuth
For in time, it will be revealed, this answer.

So where is my love and where did I put my purpose?
They can’t be found in the words of another
Or the things that you do
They won’t be found under your bed
Or hidden secretly in your head.
They’re not anywhere that you can find
For in this quest you are blind.

You can only open yourself to this feeling
And understand that you’re only concealing
For you are love and your purpose is to
Live and reflect that
And for the time being just be in love with
Where you’re at!

If I’m honest?
Honesty is where I’m at
Feeling these feeling that
Jump up and down
Like a crazed acrobat

Pictures of who I want to be
Something that I see is sensational
But I’m just seeking outside of me
And with a hunger that is insatiable
I identify with what I bring through
But this is just something that I do

Because honestly?
I feel like I’m already there
An ascended master
A life energy millionaire
And yet I despair in the living now
Because to this Picture I bow

But this pressure is no way to heal
It simply drives me to not feel
So with honesty I make this pact:
I will let you react
But I won’t contract
I will be open to the world
Because honestly?
I’m intact

Like a liar loosing language,
A singers song in the sun.
Playing angels in every angle,
An addicts attraction show anyone,

Your illness is your identity,
It bars you from serenity,
Your limitation is you lexis,
A society that intents to trick us.

Like a fire the fever favours,
A leech that looses the leg.
Busy minds murder the moment
and everyone ignores the egg.

Your body is a wand
For the magic to bond.
Realise your inner power
And start living now-a.

Like…
There is something very wrong with the world,
If there is abuse in every household.
People starving, nations warring,
Chewing our nails because life’s boring.

There is a simple truth that we are denying
We are not feeling, we are defying.
Unlearn the lie that we’ve been told,
That we’re not enough,
But enough’s enough,
Be a witness, a place to hold,
The grand wisdom that opens as you unfold
and realise that what you have to offer is gold.

A baby boy is not born a brute,
But what will it take to listen and not shoot?
We have behaviours that are impossible:
– some a cigarette
– hit your wife
– tighten the corset
– end your life
A society of ignorance, a closet full of fossils
God is consumption and we are its apostles.

Be tender, like a lovers’ last memory,
Be sensitive and feel the energy.
Let love lead you to the truth,
And remember the exquisite youth.